Many times in life, you find yourself forced to make decisions. Never be afraid. The decisions you make may turn out right or the otherwise. There will always be unanswered questions. What happens at the end of the road, no one knows. Be it right or wrong, learn, embrace and grow from the experiences and the choices you make. You will then become a much stronger person.
Every year, my birthday serves as a reminder to myself to count my blessings, be contented and be happy with what I have. I have people who care and people who love me for who I am. I have family and friends who are willing to go the extra mile to make me happy and feel love. I have them who understands who I am on the inside and without them, I wouldn't have grown to who I am today. I have also learn how to give. To give to the special people in my life. To make them feel and receive more love and happiness.
14 August started off pretty simple. I had lunch with my group friends after the quiz. It was an official last day of school for us and we were all pretty happy and excited for the holiday. We went to this cafe located at Simpang. It was a nice place to hang out. The food was good and the company was great! Viona and Cenli came in the midst. I was quite surprise to received flowers from her by my group friends. Mad love for Sunflowers!
Ps. Fion helped me thread my eyebrow that day in school. HAHAHA. Thank you so much muack!!!! And yes, the picture above was taken by her. She made me feel so pretty with my clean brows.
It was a simple lunch and I'm glad everyone was feeling satisfied with the food they ate. Thank you for the lunch treat :) I really enjoyed my meal! So after lunch, the rest left home to rest after an early day in school. So Cenli and Abigail went K with me. I guess even though the K place was sucky, I still had a wonderful time with them. The company is always the most important.
Things took off by itself after K. I was being bought to the bus and then to an unknown place. It took me awhile to guess where I was heading to. I already knew who would be there but i had no idea what we would be doing. Abigail knew my usual cravings for Stingray as usual so we had dinner over at the lagoon. Yay to cravings being satisfied! Everything was a blurred after that. I rmb how busy everyone was with their phones and garner went missing for a very long time. The most vivid thing I could remember was my eyes being covered and little seok standing in front of me with a bunch of pretty balloons. I was so glad to see her!
After dinner, I was being blindfold again. I didn't knew what to expect nor was i expecting anything. I remember holding on to Cenli and Seok tightly and walking straight aimlessly. I could remember the roughness of the sand particles when I walked on the beach and the smell of strong ocean wind. When I open my eyes, I saw one of the most magical thing right in front of me.
We played with fireworks, drank beer and talk. Even though it was short, it was still good to see all my year 2 friends around me. It was not easy setting the whole thing up, planning and coordinating with everything. Thank you Edwin for planning and thinking the surprise out, Ben and Garner for setting the magical thing up just for me to see and Shermin for coming:)
Lastly, I couldn't have enjoyed my whole day of cuz without Cenli and Abigail. They have been my laughter and support through my marketing journey. We have all grown and matured individually. We have learn a lot from one another. It wasn't the easiest journey in year 2. But because of the path we took, it got us real close to one another. Till today, I have never been more thankful in knowing them and having them proudly in my life. We have our ups and downs. We have misunderstood one another. We have quarreled, teared and laughed together. Even though we only know each other for 1.5 years, the journey we went through together was nevertheless not ordinary.
Thank you for always asking me what I want to do for my birthday. Thank you for telling me how you want to make my day very happy and memorable. Thank you for coordinating the whole day with the rest. Thank you for spending the day with me being so happy. Thank you for feeding me with food that I love. Thank you for coming into my life and being there with me till the very end.
My birthday is officially around the corner. Looking back through the past 8 months of 2014, I have to say a lot has happen. There were ups and many downs. I have grow and I have learnt. I have so much questions about my life and future. Its like I'm in a garden maze filled with mist. I'm afraid of what's next and at the same time, excited to what I can and will become. I have always thought to myself from young, 'Oh! This is what I am going to do when i grew up!, 'Oh! I'm gonna have this when I am older!' or 'Hmm.. How will I be like when I turn 20?' Well, here I am now. Then what? I have no answer.
Thinking back throughout the 20 years of my life, I have been blessed and well-protected by my love ones. I have lived my life everyday happy. I am still happy, however, I can't helped but feel something is missing. What do I want to do? What is my goal? What do I aspire to become? What should I define as the meaning to my life?
I have no answers yet again.
I hope to get that figured out soon. Internship in 3 weeks' time, wish me luck at Zalora.
Lastly, Happy 20 to me in 4 days! x
It's 2:21am in the morning now and i have just finished watching a chick flick movie call 'Lying to be perfect'. People always ask why watch chick flick? But i guess that's because chick flick movies always ends off happy. I guess that is why i like to watch it. Happily ever after.. hmm.. .I often look back on my Instagram to constantly remind myself on how lucky i am because there will be times when I feel so insecure about myself. Life isn't perfect. I ponder about how and what my life will take me to. What will be I become 10 years from now? Will I be slogging my life away unhappy? Working my butt off from morning to night, everyday? Paying endless bills that amount to a thousand? Or would I have someone special in your life living happily? Regardless of everything, I hope I will be strong and brave enough to conquer every obstacles I faced and at the end of the day, be happy for who i am.